Friday, December 24, 2004
~ 1:09 PM ~
Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday it's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think How we feel
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
How true this lyrics sounds.. hahas.. I guess many pple do not mean to put on a mask.. They are forced to under circumstances... *sadly* Some are afraid of letting their closed ones worry.. Some think it's unfair to let others 'experience' ur sadness.. Others are juz bound by their environment..
I hate the feeling of wearing one.. It's tiring.. It makes me feel so much worse later.. the reasons go on n on.. As a result, my emotions are practically 'plastered' on my face.. hahas.. Sorry pple! Guess u guys have endured quite abit too.. heh~! I am getting more temperamental recently.. argh! Not good.. not good..
Trying not to let my feelings control how I think.. but sometimes... it's really hard.. Think I have the natural AP face oso.. esp when I am tired.. nth is bothering me actually.. juz tired dat's why i look sian.. but i make my frens worry for nth! haha.. oops!
A mask hides ur true feelings from others.. but not urself..
hahas.. I still have this mentality.. Why deceive urself n others rite? heh~! Anyway it's Xmas Eve today.. so decided to blog some of my reflections here as i think thru some stuff.. hahas.. enuf of crapping liao.. i am gg to enjoy my Xmas Eve today n pple out there, enjoy urs too! Merry Xmas~!
